Damaged......

You were born April 20, 1950 ~ I was born January 15, 1970 ~ You are 59 today ~ I am 38 ~ He is 15 ~ In my 38 years I can count on 2 hands the number of times I have seen you ~ I even have fingers in reserve, should I see you again ~ How sad is that ~ I can't use all 10 fingers ~ I use to wonder when you would make up your mind ~ When would you love me as much as I loved you ~ I just wanted you to love me ~ I look at my life ~ I'm a lot like you ~ How can that be ~ I've never spent any length of time with you ~ Yet I have your mannerisms ~ Your characteristics ~ Your bravado, if you will ~ I even have your taste for self destruction ~ Although, not to your extent ~ I have the taste for it ~ I recognize it ~ Therefore I, steer clear of it ~ I try very hard not to be like you ~ I try to be everything you are not ~ An active parent ~ A loving parent ~ I have my mother to thank for that ~ In a way, I have you to thank as well ~ If it weren't for you I would never have been able to stand up for myself and my son ~ I wouldn't have had the nerve to say to his father, "I am having this baby with or without you and if you want to be around great, but the first time you walk out on him, it will be the last, because I won't have you do to him what my father did to me." ~ I tried for years to get you take an interest in me ~ I gave up ~ To quote Neil Young, "It doesn't mean that much to me, to mean that much to you" ~ In fact the entire song is you and I ~ So many similarities ~ So much lost ~ So Happy Birthday Daddy ~ Since I can't leave you with love ~ I will leave you with this ~